how incredibly ironic that at the moment of my life where i find the most meaning, the most reasons to go on, where i am–without a doubt– adding the most value… it’s at that moment that the world is at it’s absolute lowest.
Two songs you should be listening to that at this moment are always running through my head; one you’ve heard of one you may not. the 1st–and i hope this is obvious; As It Was by Harry Styles. do not argue with me. and No.2; News At 9 by Peter McPoland. i found this guy on tiktok 2 years ago, and he’s not fashioned himself into a very successful musician. here’s the link:
out of nowhere i remembered this blog today and sighed in relief that its still up with all the old posts and everything! even the layout i think is the same? i used to love reading through here in my teens (maybe 10 years ago now?) and it influenced a lot on how i write. the last posts were in 2019 and i hope this random message finds you well! please dont ever take the website down. looking forward to read through old posts on here today. thank you for creating and preserving this site! :)
— Asked by sad-0ddthanks for being here. hope you are well, hope everyone is well.
there is no prose created to explain how i feel almost all of the time. our daughter is 8 months old now, and crawling a lot, she smiles at me every time she sees me. my heart is so full. i feel foolish, because i did not know this type of love could ever exist. i have so much to give, and i feel lucky to be able to provide. so much is happening, it’s easy to be overwhelmed, but things happen, that’s all they ever do.
Wilder you are an unreal person and I’m so thankful to know you. Thank you for watching Narcos with me when Ashley won’t. (at Austin, Texas)
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ok also
seriously, i wanna actually use tumblr productively again. please tell me relevant people to follow, who don’t just reblog garbage. THANK YOU
i miss you.
Programming Note
It’s been a while, huh? Life is insane, in the past 9 years, i’ve lived in florida, nyc, maine, philly, toured the usa in a traveling show, back to florida, and now texas. Married, baby, more dogs. there’s a lot happening. I still check in on the blog though. Weird thing, someone sent me this link the other day: https://www.instagram.com/sincesheleft/
It’s Since She Left on instagram, but it’s not run by me. Frankly i don’t know who runs it. I’m unsure where the writing is coming from, because there’s not many attributions. I’m not really upset that this exists. my wife asked me if i was going to report it. I don’t think i will. imitation is the highest form of flattery, and i don’t want to run a version 2.0 of this blog on IG, though that is a good idea.
Guess i’m just putting this out there; don’t mistake that ig for being affiliated with this blog, because it’s not. Anyway, i hope you’re doing well. I hope you have identified a dream or a goal, and are pushing toward it. even a little progress is progress. i have always believed in you. – Until we speak again.
god I wish Tumblr was still a place where all my favorite people online lived now at best it’s more like coming home after moving away and driving past all the houses of your old friends, “people I love used to live there” you’d say.
Dab (at Austin, Texas Ya’LL)
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One month olds are squirmy, one month olds are hungry, one month olds are sleepy, one month olds are dreamy. Time absolutely flys.
Thank you Ash. We owe you so much. (at Austin, Texas)
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One whole month.
by this time next month, i’ll be a father.
HOW MANY MORE YEARS will my warm wishes go unnoticed, @taylorswift?
this is not the end. this is not the beginning. this is simply the middle. you are directly in it, and you need to look forward. no one, no thing, no place, no thought matters save your goals and ambitions. you dreams are watercolors waiting to be put on canvas. remember, you are in the middle, stopping now would be a mistake. don’t get lulled into anger, and revenge, and chasing intangibles. if you know your purpose, put your head down. if you don’t know what you’re supposed to do, explore (anywhere, everywhere– your mind, the entire world) and don’t stop until you find it. this is not the end.
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Don’t Lie | Vampire Weekend
this whole album is flights, bus trips, columbia maryland, jessup, walking to wegmans, longing, uncertainty. i’m so removed from all of this. odd to think, at this moment, my wife is in bed, our 3 dogs are asleep, and i, as usual, can’t sleep. sleep now moon.
being involved with Tumblr for the last ten fucking years has been like watching a close friend or family member slowly destroy themselves. no matter how hard you try, how many interventions you stage, they just keep making bad, destructive decisions. and there’s nothing we can do about it, and i’m angry that they did this to me– ruined this home. fuck you, David. i hope the money was worth it. we gave so much of ourselves here, someone should have warned us.